I'm a Cryer
Valley of Tears, Israel
I’m a cryer.
Mostly I try to hide them. I’ve blamed them on allergies or my contact lenses. It either works or people are too kind to let on.
The addicts knew. They knew when my voice caught that I wanted desperately for them to know a life of recovery in all ways. I wanted more for them than they wanted for themselves.
Invariably the tears will form when I read Nadia Bolz-Weber’s blog, The Corners. Her transparency, bold faith, compassion, humor, all strike at my heart.
“I cling to the hope that the me whom God loves is the me that isn’t wearing makeup.”
Nadia Bolz-Weber
I’m empathetic and sensitive to the feelings of others. I’ve mostly stopped apologizing for my tears.
I’ve accepted that the words of Nadia Bolz-Weber, the Psalms, counseling men caught in addiction, celebrating the joys of a new baby, Sleepless in Seattle, laughing so hard with family will always cause little puddles in my eyes.
Today I recognize the gift of deep emotion. Whether moved by joy or sorrow, conviction or celebration I know this is how God created me: empathetic and sensitive, full on emotions in laughter and tears.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit them together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Psalm 139:13-14 Living Bible
Everyday, celebrate how God created you.
You are in good company and as a easy cryer, I see you and love that about you. Emily Freeman calls tears "tiny messengers" which are what allow us to share as part of who we are - in writing, in listening and loving others. Thank you for being a cryer. Grateful for your authenticity.
Beautiful, and thank you. I too am a cryer and often get annoyed with myself for being "so emotional". I tear up at the least little things. I'm still working on accepting this, so your words are spot on for me.